Taking It To The END!

Dissapointed... not deprived of hope n joy

2007-01-14T15:45:00.001+08:00

CAnt realli explain my feelings now, but i still sometimes feel disapointed when i brood over it.

Some1 i regard as close to me, have actualli made me look lik a fool n wad's worst...

tht person jus cldn admit tht one was in the wrong. Tht person had to try n manipulate one's way thru trying to get me convinced tht tht person's action is right n had no other intentions n if one had made a mistake, tht person wld actualli own up..... but tht was not how it is. i finally realise tht person's true self.... have i been a fool all along?

But i may used to deem myself as one but not anymore. i have forgiven tht person even though till now tht person have not said a sorry to me or admit one's wrong(i guess tht person still think one is right?!). n tht is cos i din wan to keep feeling bad bout everythng tht concerns it. But to keep the joy tht the Lord has in store for me.

N most imptantly not loosing it...

I realli thnk God tht he has NEVER fail me n will NEVER fail me.

I m gonna invest more of myself in God den people around me, not tht i dun trust ppl any more but i trust God more.

Cos only humans have failed me, as well as thngs.. But my God have never failed me. =D

Sorry arh...

2007-01-03T21:00:00.000+08:00

Lazy Lazy Lazy Lazy Lazy Lazy Lazy Lazy Lazy Lazy cant be bothered to post! heh! ^^ another time den...

Okie... Did had some fun..

2006-12-28T17:35:00.000+08:00

Hmmm... let me see, dunno where to start but, haven been blogging for many days alrdy.

Today i din go out so i cld actualli sit down n blog, din reallii do much but was quite fun, playing basket ball, going gym, going out... yea! okie.

Oh n my fren says i shldn blog about wad i been doing instead about my feelings n emotions!

All i can say is hey! if i m going to blog about my emotions, i gotta be very mood swingy.... 0.0 well, err... i m not! n i heard this sermon b4 lik i said, MANGING YOUR EMOTIONS, so wad's there to blog if tht is it huh? ^^ i totally totally agree wit myself, erm... ok i going a bit over board. But i m right right?

Who sits at the comp n starts revising thru their feelings n starts writing them down every time he/she enters the blogger post pg?!?! it is ridiculous... even girls during their pms period... (erm.. hope the girls dun mind) dun blog all about their feelings cos if u do, even the saddest person on earth will blog probably twice a week?! when we blog, we do blog about our feelings, thoughts n emotions but not totally 100% u noe wad i mean?! o.0?

Ok look here, how bout my draft....

U blog about wad u did during the day, n especially blog about wad event tht rouse ur feelings n emotions, after start to pour our ur thoughts n feelings about tht n also say wad u going to do bout it.....

N not............... "OH man! i m feeing so sad... i m so discouraged, im so depressed, im so afraid... ...den, i shall E.N.D my feelings here! goodbye."?!?!?!

uhhh... wwad a great way to blog huh?!

How bout this........... "Hey! i went to see the merlion today, i was facinating it suddenly i begin to hate it, cos when i got a closer look at it, i realise how childish those designers were n they made it the TRADE MARK of Singapore?! it's drawn by nursery kids n they put it up for our trade mark?!"

This is wad i call, blog about wad u do, after tht reason it, give ur thoughts n opinion n say how u feel bout it...

In another words... 60%- day's work/events 40%-thoughts, emotions, feelings

Smuack<<3 i love the way my draft is... err.. ok gosh! tht is bad, anyway.
THT is all i have gotta say for now dude! -.0

Till den! =) byes...

Oh man! help me get a life!?

2006-12-23T23:54:00.000+08:00

Im realli realli realli lazy to blog ok! i dunno y, dun ask me... hahas! but i shall update, yea, was quite a fun day for me today n i'm super tired now.

So another time den! Nitez >< zZZzZzzZ...

Ahhhh... I'm crazy!?!

2006-12-21T19:13:00.000+08:00

Ehh... I gotta admit man! i m getting lazy to blog liao! but shall update once in a while la... haha=D

Ok I'm suffering now can?! My Arms n my neck n my face have all been burned by the sun!=(
Ohman! i cant believe it! I went to play bball under the sun for not more than 5 hrs n i got burned!?! gosh... oh well.. Yesterday played ball wit Abel kwan, n abel's god sis? called Pui fong, den pui fong asked Samantha and her few other frens along cos of a lame reason of jus to SEE HOW TALL ABEL IS! maN! TheY aInT goNNa LoOk At mY HeiGhT oK...! ok, so i m lik wadever..! Anyway, at 1st we were playing wit pui fong n another of her fren! Den later Samantha joined in.... ok fine, she wants me to call her tai zi, but i dun listen wan! lolx, anyway.. She joined in den we had to play 3v2, den the guys 1 team, the girls 1 team.. yea! we slacked, gave chance, din even bother to count score, jus "played", or i shld say jus throw the ball whenever we have it. lol.. So after for a while we got bored den the girls jus say they win!! so we were lik, ok lor... ur win.. den after tht we went to toilet n prepared to leave, (Oh btw, Abel tried to peep into the girls toilet! He can deny it for all he lik but i saw his head turn when we were walking pass it!=D) As we were walking back to the central, we were lik talking how much a couple abel n pui fong is! XD lol... den, after a while Samantha was so called "argueing" wit abel, den we all walked behind, n puifong even said they look lik married couple quarreling =DD haiz... Samantha didn noe we were talking bout her den she so happily joined in laughing when we were saying abel made her pregnant! hahahaha.... after tht we ate Kfc n went off, i went to watch movie... n long story.. ok wadever, haiz.. anyway, kinda bored now, din realli have much of activities today. So yea.

Shall E.N.D here byes! +)

OK! im super irritated now! -.-

2006-12-19T15:41:00.000+08:00

I wrote an Essay for my blog n lik i suddenly pressed one key! EVERYTHNG DISSAPEARED!

I m kinda pissed wit it!

OK! i shall summarise den! Joanne's concert was yesterday, n Me n John met up 1st, it was a super rainy day... lik we had to walk so long under the rain n we were so soaked n wet!~

n we were late! great we reached there n we missed two items...! Nvm! tht most embarrasing thng which happened was when i was sitting beside John, n SuDDeNLy, He jUs ShouTeD JoANnE We WiLL aLwaYs SupPoRt U(he said it in chinese)! Im lik OMGOSH!! this is a concert, n not Singapore idol u noe! Every1 started looking!!!!! And i wanted to change place but the other seats dun look rosy at all! THE WORST THNG IS STILL YET TO COME! Joanne wasn in tht grp of Alumni Band playing! She was in the main band! HE THOT he saw his sis n started shouting... -.-!!!!!!!! So he got the wrong person after tht, n he.... blushed....? o.0!

Anyway, we stayed till the end n later John's parents fetched me back! so greatful! =)

Ok i shall E.N.D here den! till den! (Arghh... try to understand my agony man!) lol/...

Testimonial(Believe it or not?)

2006-12-18T12:27:00.000+08:00

Ok wad a day... If u realised i skipped one day, tht was cos i was not feeling too well..

Had a painful back sprain.. even my movement was affected. I cldn believe how it actually happened but all i cld remember was when i was near s11 i stood up n suddenly, AARRGGHHH!!! My back..... ok u get wad i mean.. i thot it was jus a short pain.. but NO! it was so pain tht i even got colin to wack my back for me.. i was totally out of my mind den of cos! o.0 he made thngs worst though :D i must admit.

Anyway, i cldn realli do much, played some bridge den i left, was walking home n i started praying, my personal prayer was "LORD! HEAL ME!"

My faith stood strong in God n i will ever keep believing tht he will heal me. So i walked back home! when i got home, i told one of my bro-in-Christ, tht i have a prayer request n tht was for healing! He reminded me, (Matt 18:20) so we prayed together, RIGHT AFTER THE PRAYER, I ALSO DUNNO HOW THE PAIN LEFT ME?! o.0! lol but it jus left me, i den realise tht Lik a gun n a bullet, , they work hand in hand to attack! (bullet=Prayer)(gun=Faith) u cant attack w/o the bullet, niether can u have the bullet n not the gun! so having faith without prayer, produces nothng, so does prayer without faith!

Anyway... there is more to it, but i shall put it till here.

Preparing to meet John to go to Jo's concert soon le. =D

ok till den, byes... =)

Totally off track from sleeping! 0.0

2006-12-16T22:51:00.000+08:00

RIGGGHHTT!!! Today, i slept at 730am n woke up at 445pm or 1645... Missed my own youth! Tht is crap. ok anyway, i got up n rushed to get ready to leave the house, later went VFC, wanted to join my youth but dunno where r they.

so as usual... went to have dinner wit em at j8 till 920 liddat den i left. This PoSt Is A sUmMarY oF TodAy lIfE.. quite crap cos of me waking up so late, dun realli feel lik blogging much today too.

Shall E.N.D here den! =) Gd nitez... feel lik slping alrdy! zzZZzZzzZ *.*

Carolin Wit VFC day..

2006-12-15T15:04:00.001+08:00

Not realli an ordinary day today... but not tht interesting as well, as usualli today i slept at 5am plus close to 6, woke up at about 2.45pm or 1445 on my hp clock! =D wow! i pigg in alot, hope i dun grow any fatter man! lol...

Got up and as usual, my mum left wit my lil bro n went to the market area near our house. Den i washed up, later when i took out my hp, i had a msg from grace bout the carolin thingy... lik i m alien to it leh?! dunno wad is happening! ahhh... but nvm grace explained to me le... so ok! but i had to be there late, cos i cldn make it by 6! The thot of being there late is lik.. oh man! tht is embarrasing can?! So i m lik nvm bout it now. I decided to use the laptop for a while to clear up some mail n stuff..

Cldn think of wad else to do later, so i continued using the laptop till my mum came home wit my lunch, well... yea i skiped breakfast! DiEtiNg... No nO FasTInG! =D ok wadever.. My mum finally came home at 330pm or 1530, n im lik y so long?? she gave her "i had alot of things to buy u noe!?!" tht was her today's excuse... =D yesterday was "I was trapped in the rain u noe we had to wait so long la!". ok.. i cld find ways to rebut her, but guess wad?! i m not bordered. Y waste ur breathe in disrespecting ur parents?! o.0.. ok i m holy alright!

wow.. ok! i jus wondered about in the house till 6 when i left! Met wit the VFC ppl for the carolin thingy, which was my EVENT of the day.. hahas! was quite fun n nice. except for the part when gary walked off... -.-! worst still din wanna join us back after my "comforting words" >< ok... fine i m lik wadever! =DD the carolin was tiring too! definitely! Oh! but the un-fun part was, when i was the junk man!! 1st Gary gave me his bottle n asked me to HOLD it for him, later he told me i cld throw it away... -.-, wow.. tht is not all! Sharmian gave me her bottle n asked me to HOLD for her, saying it's only gentlemanly to do so! thnks alot ehh? later lennie came to me saying if i can help him HOLD his packet of milo, when there is only a few drops left! OmG...! but after some laughs, i made he take it back! =D for Sharmian, is her water bottle so she doesn have any choice, but to take it back! +D. Later we went to celebrate shawns depart, lik he gave speech n all! but guess wad! he is oni leaving to tekong for 2 WEEKS! OmG... at 1st i thot he lik migrating or smthng, but well, he's botak! :D though i wrote to him botak-to-be.. =D well, he's a super fun n nice guy n i guess the ppl of region 7 n 8 will wan him there every week! :) lol. kinda fun..

Well, later rushed down to my over-night prayer which ended at 6, so now here i m blogging on my laptop! n have not taken any rest..! Gosh!? GoD BleSS Me WiTh A FruITfuL SleEp! i dun mind slping lik a pig, it's better to be lik a slping pigg rather den to wake up like a panda, den stsrt drowning urself in panadols! those experienced ppl will noe wad i m saying ^^

okie! so i shall stop here for now, later still got today's events to blog! o.0...! i m soon a panda!

Another one of those days...

2006-12-14T17:32:00.000+08:00

Woke up today, at about 215PM! btw... not am, but i slept at 4am plus cos was talking n doing some stuff! ohman! i slept lik a pigg! canT BelieVE it! lik i dunno how to wake up when my mum came into my room at 11am! still so tired! Ok anyway, today, was realli lik one of those other days... boring days, other than chatting wit some fun frens. ^^ but i kinda got used to it... n u wun wanna her much cos i m quite a boring person in tht sense haiz... -.- haiz.. hope to get a better life. Well... today is the so called "official" openingofmy blog after 2 days of hard work constructing it, i dun realli wan it too complex, a lil simpler wld do for me =) still linking ppl though... alot of ppl i can actualli think to link wit.. haha!

Ok, anyway... todae, din realli do much, in general.. chat on msn, blogged, talked over the fone a lil, hmmm... interesting frens i have! :D
Kept me occupied the whole day some how. B4 i woke up, My mum went to J8 wit my lil bro so i had to get up n go buy my on lunch! -.- got quite irritated when i had to run under the rain! It dint stop since last night. Anyway, bought my own food, was suppose to call claud den but had to get all my stuff done 1st. Walked back home, haven eaten my lunch den, n i kept claud waiting! =0 but thnk God she was watching tv, so she was occupied n she dun mind waiting, so i dun feel so bad! ^^ hees!

well, rushed thru my lunch, den quickly give her a call. Asked her bout some blogs n stuff den chit chat for a while, den we hung up. later jus chat wit frens on msn! n the worst thng happened as usual!>< my mum came home asking me to bring my lil bro down, den i brought the laptop down too! did some blogging n linking, but i cant realli do much, cos i had to watch over my lil bro who is still playing wit the cat n disturbing it, he jus got scratched yesterday, by the SAME cat n still disturbing it today! yea... u r seeing correctly.. the SAME cat! i recognised the spot n designs on it's body ok?! cos it caused me alot of trouble yesterday. haiz... My lil bro dun learn his lessons wan. He is lik scolding the cat n asking it y did it scratch him yesterday, thinking the cat will be scared by him. But the cat simply lie there meow-ing, making my lil bro lik some kind of fool! :D den suddenly he became so soft-hearted n decided to give the cat some water out of his water bottle, n he poured it on the floor!?! i m lik for wad... it's RAINING n water is everywhere! dotz... so i jus took the water bottle away, n the non-amazing thng is tht the cat din even bother drinking the water my lil bro poured for him! wad a CAT man!

The whole day is lik raining, even now when i m typing! still RAINING! OmG!... wad a thng to upset ur day if u wanna go out.. but thank God again tht i dun feel lik going out today! =P well... laptop was lik totally flat n im lik wad in the world m i gonna do man..! i cldn bare watching my lil bro there playing wit the cat while i was sitting there staring at the blank screen.

So i went home wit him... had my dinner, was realli full n i got back to my laptop but cldn get my connection! -.-?! how irritating man! after some time i adjusted my connection n finally!!!! GoD BleSS mE wIt A BetTeR cOnnEcTioN pls! =) well! got on den chat n chat n chat, n blogged this! haiz... realli ordinary day! well... shall stop here for now till den! =))

Wow... tired n irritated! -.-

2006-12-13T22:45:00.000+08:00

I cANt Believe it! Getting to understand how to operate this blogger is lik trying to understand greek! Well all thnks to Wei Yang! ^^ He's computer genius... Thnks yang!

Ok... cant realli think much now cos gotto go see some anime show, n chat, n do some work...

I guess i better get started or i will never E.N.D it well! =) ok... n if anyone can help me out wit some template here... pls contact me, or tag on my board.. still a noob to it! -.- haiz... but well get use to it! hahaha.. lik tell me bout interesting stuff n wad other interesting templates there r! lolx... i will definitely hear from u! =) ok till den! i shall E.N.D here. ^^

Birth of the end blog!<< myblog!>> =D

2006-12-13T02:58:00.000+08:00

wad a morning! my blog now begins at 3am! 13 dec 2006!

my plans for now r jus to link n link n link n.... post a lil! hahas..

still trying to adapt to the blogger system... hey can any1 help me out here? =? haha